Author: cbain

Today things have been quiet for the most part. I actually got to enjoy maybe half of the day with no pain, no threats and peace. Right around 6:30P.M. things turned sinister again. Someone started to cause me pain in my left testicle. It is a sharp pain that clearly turns on and off with…

I am sitting here on the bed with my partner lying next to me and the cat resting on top of her. They are napping and I am watching an episode of 9-1-1 where a guy proposed to a woman and fell through the escalator and ended up dying. Again, I feel hard to describe…

I have been trying to articulate how another human being could possibly not only read my internal monologue but also place words inside or “edit” it or make it “sound” like it’s me thinking of someone else speaking as themselves- as if I was able to participate in a conversation with another person using only…

It has come to my attention that my birth certificate is also missing. Thanks to the hard work of the North Olmsted police department, these criminals have been successful and evaded apprehension.

There are 2 things right now missing from my house that were stolen by the same criminals who have been doing this to me the whole time. My Ohio State ID is gone- I had left it on my bed inside the wallet on my old iPhone case. EDIT: It has been returned My Social…

On Saturday, April 12th at approximately 7:26PM I started feeling something affect me that I can only describe as impending death. It was caused by the people perpetrating the same electrical harassment I have been enduring for months now. This started in North Olmsted, and I decided I didn’t want to die sitting at the…

It is funny to me, how the voices I have been hearing lately have been trying to convince me that what I’m hearing is mental health related. They think I have not articulated myself well enough on this blog to prove that this isn’t mental health related. What do you do with someone like that?…

Every single day, sometime between 4am and 5am for the last 6 months. I have been forced awake and forced to sit up in bed with my eyes closed until I fall back asleep. My apple watch data also shows that I am forced awake multiple times throughout the night for a few minutes. This…

Over the past 6 months, shortly after this started happening, I started randomly experiencing a strong metallic taste (almost like blood) in my mouth. It would come and last for 2-3 minutes then disappear. One of the times this happened, one of my “mental health voices” told me that it was from poison in the…

For 6 months now my bowels have only moved at the pleasure of my “mental health voices”. They decide when I feel the urge to pass stool and how long I have to wait between. There have been 2 nearly whole month periods where I was not allowed to pass stool. My “mental health voices”…