I just woke up a little bit ago. When I did, I kept my eyes closed. The first thing I’m greeted with as I regain consciousness is flashing/strobing lights and colors in my eyes with my eyelids closed. It feels like I just got off some kind of machine that tilts and turns in different directions. Almost like when you get off a rollercoaster that spins. I don’t feel like I’m falling, it feels like my internal experience is being thrown in different directions. I know full well I’m just lying in my bed, not moving.
I sit up, eyelids still closed, waiting for it to be turned off. I raise my hand and flick off in the direction it feels like it’s coming from. It starts to wind down. Whoever is running the machine gets the point I believe and turns it off. Whenever this machine is on, it is torture upon waking up. They used to leave this running every day, all day, 24/7. It hasn’t been used in a while before this morning.
I surely hope the neighbors near you don’t ever use this technology on you. It is extremely hard to articulate, and no one paid attention in school so even getting the police to do a scientific investigation is impossible. They would rather be confidently wrong and laugh and joke amongst themselves about mental health. I sincerely do hope it happens to them. The same thing that’s happening to me.
Once again, when I leave North Olmsted and stay in a hotel outside the city, this machine doesn’t get used. Except for when we went to Illinois, this group did bring it to Alsip.
As I finish this post and close my eyelids temporarily to test- I see wonderful empty blackness. How it should be.
If this was some kind of mental health condition, why does covering my eyes with 2 hands (layered) remove the effects? I sincerely do not like having to put 2 hands over my eyes when I wake up until the effects wear off.