For 6 months now my bowels have only moved at the pleasure of my “mental health voices”. They decide when I feel the urge to pass stool and how long I have to wait between.
There have been 2 nearly whole month periods where I was not allowed to pass stool. My “mental health voices” were talking about making a poop baby.
At one point, I used magnesium citrate to try and force a bowel movement. It literally stayed in my intestines for days before my mental health voices let it expel by giving me the urge to pass stool.
One of my “mental health voices” favorite past-times is moving the stool to the end of the rectum and then moving back up the tract. They like to do this multiple times before finally trying to stop the movement while its halfway sticking out.
Thankfully, through the power of describing reality- I looked into how the science of this could possibly work and looked for a defense for myself.
I have now realized that if I put a tinfoil mask on my face covering my nose and ears when I have that first urge to pass, my “mental health voices” are no longer able to control my bowels and I can pass normally.
I hope this helps someone else going through this rare and only recently discovered mental health diagnosis.